Tuesday, January 11, 2005

had a quarrel with a friend ytd night. and the friendship was said to be ended. i don't feel so. after the conversation ended. i cried. not because i feel sad and guilty but because i feel so lost. so lost that i'm afraid. i dunno how and what to do with this whole thing. it seems so confusing...that i can't trust anyone.

after the conversation, i opened my Bible...within me, was a certainty that God was gonna speak. suddenly, psalm 27 popped out in my mind. i flipped to it and read it.

psalm 27:1 "The Lord is my light and my salvation- whom shall i fear?

The Lord is the stronghold of my life- of whom shall i be afraid?"

whom shall i be afraid? no one! the hope that i have is enough for me, to take another step. i continued flipping thru the Bible and i found another verse. a verse that many of us are familiar with and a lot of people encouraged me with it. the verse is proverbs 3:5-6.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."

"in all your ways acknowledge Him" also means "in all your ways know Him". nodding in God's direction is not enough. I must know God by living closely with him...relating to God personally in every aspect of my life.

after i read these two verses, i felt so comforted and satisfied... i was glad that i ran straight towards Him, like a small child in need. His peace came...so instant. even faster than cooking instant noodles man. haha.
"dear Heavenly Father, what am i going to do?" whats my next step? all i know is that i trust Him taht He'll bring me thru' and over, and i really want to live a life worthy of God. what would Jesus do? =)

everything else fades away...when u focus on Jesus.