Friday, January 14, 2005

yesterday was a really bad day for me. i almost burst out into tears in school...for the first time. this guy fr my class borrowed my marketing notes on wed and he was supposed to gimme back on the day itself. but he didn't. after the last lecture, he went off with my notes and it was too late when i realised. after that, i decided to ask my dear to msg him...telling him to make sure that he come the next day. he wasn't the responsible type at all...he comes to school like 2days out of 5days per wk? when he asked for my notes, i just couldn't refuse him.

so, the next day...which was yesterday. he didn't turn up and i was really really upset. i dun have my notebook and where am i gonna copy my notes???!!!!! i felt that i didn't deserve this...copying notes twice, just becos i trusted him again. a few times, when i was in the same project grp... he did things which were unacceptable. in the end, i just forgave him and forget about everything. this time, he crossed the line. one word that i can describe him. pathetic. at night, when i was having QT...i added another request. that he'll come tmr to return my notes and i'll be able to forgive and handle this well...reflecting Jesus in me. lastly, a oppotunity to talk to him abt it. i think it was 4 requests in all. hee.

thank God he turned up today for my marketing lecture! the lecture was 2hrs...if he didn't turn up today... haha. who knows what i could have done to him. =P

when he saw me today, he apologised. i just shrugged...and went to my lecture seat. all i know is, i have zero trust for him unless he change for the better and gain my trust back. i'm praying n praying for an opportunity to launch an 'attack'... i've always wanted to tell him this. " do unto others what you want others to do unto you." and ask him, "if i were you and u were me...and i did all those things to you. how would you feel?"

everything else fades away...when u focus on Jesus.